My life right now

So... everything as of now is very interesting and chill. I mean having a semester off from classes feels great, but I've been having a feeling of emptiness. While it is nice weeding people out of my life,taking control of everything overall, and having more confidence, I still feel a sense of emptiness, bitterness, and a little bit of sadness in a way. I mean overall I am a happy person, I've met some cool people within this pass year, and learned a lot more about myself as a person.

Some things I still need to work on is to have a sense of organization.. I want to do all these things, but I never make the time to sit down and make the phone calls, emails, and whatever that is necessary to carry out some of my goals. I mean I feel like I've accomplished some things, since I am going to Geneva (United Nations Headquarters), and have been involved with a theater organization.. But I know there is still more to accomplish.

I've gotten a lot closer to some people, while others have been a little distant, but hey that's life. But the other day I was speaking with big bro Sean, and we talked about my choices with friends and relationships/dates...
I've been saying that I've been evolving, but I realized that I can't be at this higher frequency in life if I am getting rid of not so great people, when i bring in their replacements. One thing I had to disagree with is this whole thing of liking the bad ones... I can understand why people say that because of my last relationship, and the person who is trying to talk to me now seems like someone who isn't the best before me. At first, yes I wanted to consider it based off of looks and stuff, but I know deep down I didn't care what was wrong. But, in reality I could tell exactly what would go down with this one. However, a part of me feels like i can change people for the better, so that was probably my drive not to totally care about what some of the people might have said. I was told by Big Bro, and I am not angry or trying to be shady, that misery loves company and a few other things. I know what he was saying and I have to admit while there are points to it,I disagree. I agreed with the loneliness part though, which isn't a great reason to pursue someone. I felt like rather than misery, it really is me thinking that it would be different, when it would not. I mean I just wanted to take the chance, i don't think I'd let myself feel like that, but I looked at it as more of a challenge.. But even though i find him to be wrong, it does look like what he said...

However, I decided not to bother with it, and I decided to just take breath and relax. I've come to the realization that I am my own worst enemy, and I am thankful that I am fighting that, and continuing to evolve to this beautiful person. I love and will always that all my true friends (especially Sean, Ryan, Juan and Sara) The four of you have always been there when times were rough at different points. I also miss Steph and Katherine!! I gotta see you two soon!!

But all in, I will focus on what is really important in my life.. The fact that i have to put myself on the map with the careers that I want in the future, and to strive for something that is great. I am truly a person who want to fight for a cause, make a difference, be happy and part, be drama free, to be a spiritual person, and a creative one. So i am happy that I am getting the point where the pettiness, sadness, and second guessing is going away.

That's all for now, but I there is soo much more. lol!!

Thanks for reading!

-Jrizza

Life

The image above is a lil emo, and it is of me....thinking.. I've been feeling wonderful lately, but just the other day life smacked me in the face and told me I'm still unhappy. The weird part is I have had no clue in figuring out what has been bothering me.. Weird.. I mean I think it stems from living in Boston all my life, I feel like Boston has become so gloomy for me.. I Know I have to make the best out of it. I need to pick up some better habits, find some activities, and just continue to get to know the great man that I am becoming. One thing I always learned from my mom is that it's always to best love yourself first and foremost. Another thing I realized is that I put too much effort in thinking about what is happening next, next month, next year, 2011, 2012, the future... instead of realizing that I need to focus on today! One step at a time.

I am also a little down with the events and falling outs I've had with certain people in my life. Both friends and family. The best thing for me to do is to realize that I need to move forward and accept that not everyone is capable of changing themselves. It's one thing that takes too much energy to focus on others when I need to help myself. I just have to move forward and let it go. I am just happy for the most part this has already happened or is happening..

But I do have some things to look forward to, I am going to Geneva Switzerland!! woot!!! I depart on my birthday, June 29th, and return in the end of July! So i am very excited about that. I am also supposed to go to India in November, but I am still contemplating on what I want to do that second half of the year.

I'm really pumped for Geneva! I also have the chance of revisiting France, and possibly go to Italy and Germany if I save my money the right way! Hopefully i do, and I know i will! lol. :) Let me know if you want me to bring you back a souvenier when i go.

A lil adventure

FAIL!


So this week has been an odd one for me. It was great to chill with brothers Juan Garcia and Big bro SeanJohn We got some chicken and Waffles from this Joint The Hen House located near South Bay Mall. It turned out to have good Waffles, but man were those chicken wings average. It was a little too crispy in a bad way. The fried cabage sucked, and the mac and chesse was straight. Their waffles fries were good. Me and Sean Knew the moment we saw an Asian working at a chicken place that there were some red flags, even though he wasn't making the chicken. The portions were great and the wait isn't all that bad. However, the location sucks!! The only way to get there is to take the number 10 bus from copley. What the fuck?
2/5 stars on this one. They lost the 1/2 point for the locations.